Whatever you do is never enough. So you stay busy. You fill up all your time.
When you do get a spare minute to yourself, you fill it with a scroll through Instagram or a Buzzfeed video or a “Which sandwich am I?” quiz. Maybe you fall asleep with Netflix on autoplay.
Being a human on a hamster wheel has its perks.
You’re always doing. You go for that extra degree, that extra assignment at work, that extra vacation.
You’re competent, you’re productive, you’re fun!
From the outside, all of this busyness looks like SUCCESS in bright marquee lights.
If this is working for you and you feel good, keep doing it!
But what if it doesn’t feel good?
What if you feel a painful gnawing inside when you slow down for even a second?
What if, despite all of this doing and filling, your middle still feels like a bottomless hungry pit?
Sometimes doing everything can be a way of trying to cope with whatever’s buried inside that pit—or missing from it.
What would happen if you were to get curious about the well inside you?
Looking at the deepest parts of yourself with curiosity rather than judgment builds insight, understanding, and self-compassion.
Making sense of what you find better informs the everyday choices you make.
Therapy can help you start seeking pleasure instead of just reflexively avoiding pain.
If this sounds like something you’re looking for, I’d love to hear from you.